让他做他爱做的事！

才刚说很累，想休息一下，马上又突然想到了一些事，迫不及待想纪录下来。

每一段恋情，都有独特的经营方式。两个人在一起所撞击出的火花，没有一朵是完全一样的。。。我和他的故事，跟你和他的故事也完全不同。

观察久了，却发现每一段恋情，其实也有相似的地方。对，那 underlying principle 是一样的。基本的尊重，两性之间最原始的差别，你的恋情有，我的也有。

有人曾经告诉我：“作为女朋友，或老婆，最重要的是让另一半在别人面前看起来威风，有面子。就算他的论点不对，就算你非常非常生他的气，在别人面前，还是要为他留台阶。”以前，我不懂这句话的意思，总觉得干吗要迁就他？错就是错啊！难道我要像傻瓜一样，明知道他错还维护着他？其实不然。这是一种相处之道。男人需要面子。他觉得开心，有颜面，对你当然也好一点。It's an ego thing!

很奇怪？呵呵。。。不会啦。不相信的话，看看周围的模范夫妻，就知道了。当然，在外人面前不动声色，并不代表回到家里也随你便。聪明的女人，是出得了厅堂无伤大雅，回到了家里才和你“算账”。。。

放假

突然想放假。下一次放假其实是在明年二月，已经订好去悉尼的机票了。。。可是二月离现在还有两个多月，真的是好闷哎。。。

现在很没有心情写东西，或许这段时间会很少看到我的踪影。。。Take a break，或许到时候，会有新的 ideas，新的感触。。。就这样了！

喜事

好累噢。今天（哎呀，其实是昨天）跑了3个地方。。。早上打球，中午朋友的女儿满月，晚上到中学同学的婚宴。一天赶三场，满累人的。

不用多说，到了这把年纪，身边周围的朋友结婚的结婚，生孩子的生孩子，当然桌上的话题里不了“几时到你？”我的答案很简单，“明年吧？”如果不是明年的话，到了明年我还是能够讲是“明年”。。。

周末

就这样，一个星期又过去了。时间过得可真快，才一转眼，十二月的脚步已经慢慢接近。

这一整个礼拜都在忙，整个礼拜都没回家吃饭。。。时间排得满满，咖啡因指数也攀高了许多。工作堆积如山。。。 整个 team 只剩下我。。。 没办法啊！我们只是一个很小很小的队伍，加上指挥（老板）只有4人罢了。Yes, it is a very very lean team...

周末的来临，让我兴奋不已。有点：“终于可以松一口气了！”的感觉哦。。。应该好好地慰劳一下自己，准备下一次的冲刺！

你要的是什么？

原来人走到最后，最想要的是多一点时间。。。

多一点时间和亲人一起共享天伦。
多一点时间做善事积阴德。
多一点时间为自己的所作所为赎罪。

人生短短的那几十年，你是怎样度过的？为功名奋斗？为挚爱牺牲？抑或是。。。

每个人都有离开这世界的一天。过了那一天，你希望流芳百世，还是遗臭万年？你要所有的人记得你的好，还是要全世界把你遗忘？

今天的家财万贯，明天会不会一无所有？

这世上没有绝对，你只能够操纵自己的能力范围里的事物，其他的何必烦恼？抓得越紧，越是抓不住。。。

情人挚爱，不会永远在你身旁。今天不知明天事，记得把握与珍惜现在所拥有的。。。

人非圣贤，岂能无错？知错能改，孺子可教也。亏心事不能做，否则寝食难安。。。

明明知道这是一场肯定输的比赛，我们依然永远跟时间赛跑。。。时光不可能倒流，凡是三思而行，作了决定就不能后悔。。。

这一场比赛，只要全力付出，结果一定是好的。

文字游戏（二）

读了疯子的《无病呻吟@杂谈精华》，感触良多。

赞。

一针见血，把时下的语文情况反映出来了。

疯子的语文程度。。。太“独杠”(read: "tokgong") 了。不愧是“精华”。也因为这样，本人觉得很汗颜。。。疯子是学长耶，同样是来自一样的地方，哎哟这华语的程度未免也相差得太远了吧？

我读过中华文学，考完了'O' 水准便统统“原银奉还”。。。什么唐宋诗词。。。都不怎么记得了。。。记得诗人忘了诗，真丢脸。读过中华文学有如何？唉。。。大学三年级的时候，跑到文学系选修初级文学，考试的时候竟然忘了水浒传的“浒”字怎么写。

叫我读华文书籍，叫我看华文报，叫我说华语，我应该还是死不了，可叫我写，恐怕有点问题了。。。现在要不是有中文输入的软件，我看。。。唉。。。

这里的双语制度，真的有点行不通哦。。。悲哀。。。

突发奇想

突发奇想，想到太空游玩。

突发奇想，想放下这里的一切，周游列国“普度众生”。

突发奇想，想成为最具权威的商业女强人。

突发奇想，如果新加坡也有四季之分，那该多好。

突发奇想。。。每一个想法都有点不搭线，一跳到四，四跳到五十九。。。

这样白痴的散文，只有我写得出，看都觉得无聊。

无聊之极，尽显痴人说梦话的特征。呵呵。。。

Personal Attacks... an old email revisited

Was going through some of my old emails... and came across this old email directed at me... remember feeling very upset over this... and even as I read it now, I still feel a stab.

I've edited this post. Originally posted the entire email... but after a couple of hours, I decided it's not so nice to do that... I mean, what would that make me? What purpose does it serve? So I edited this post, to take out the email...

But the email contents were scary... and it came from someone whom i thought was a friend. I was horrified at the accusations and was very hurt. I felt that I was being bullied and belittled because this person thinks that I am a young punk who deserves to be screamed at. It wasn't easy. The worse thing was someone else got dragged into this whole fiasco as well. I also lost the respect for that particular person, and in a separate email I actually wrote:"respect needs to be earned. and you've lost my respect."

The incident made me doubt my own abilities. For a long time, I was very affected by what was being said of me and my actions, and I really felt that I was a bad employee, bad peer, whatever. You wouldn't understand, if you had not been in the same situation that I was in. Left me trembling with anger, felt I was pushed to the wall, and was already "guilty by suspicion".

After that incident, I kept reminding myself to protect my own butt... I've gotten wary of people. All kinds of people, you will meet... be strong, and earn the respect. I'm sorry, but welcome to the real world. It's a dog-eat-dog world...

Ways to keep a healthy level of insanity

A funny mail I received...

1. At lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
2. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.
3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it "in"
5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has Gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.
6.Tell your children over dinner "due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go."
7. Finish all your sentences with "in accordance with the prophecy."
8. Dont use any punctuation marks
9. As often as possible, skip rather than walk.
10. Ask people what sex they are. Laugh hysterically after they answer.
11. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go".
12. Sing along at the opera.
13. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme.
14. Put mosquito netting around your work area. Play a tape of jungle sounds all day.
15. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.
16. Have your coworkers address you by your wrestling name, Rock Hard Kim.
17. When the money comes out the ATM, scream "I won!", "I won!" "3rd time this week!!!!!"
18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling "run for your lives, they're loose!!"

And the final way to keep a healthy level of insanity......

19. Send this e-mail to everyone in your address book, even if they sent it to you or asked you not to send them stuff like this.

Where does your beauty lie?

Your Beauty lies in Dreams. Day-dreamer, creative and forever lost in thoughts. You're a dreamer, wanting more in your life than you have now. Though you a lot of your dreams never seem to leave your own mind. You've created your own little world inside that head of yours and you're most beautiful when your mind is in the clouds with sparkles in your eyes. You'd rather be asleep than awake and people find it hard to have long conversations with you as you mind often wanders and you aren't a big fan of reality. You are long and almost child-like probably with a great love for Fantasy or Science Fiction. You're very creative and most likely love to write wonderful stories or draw and even sing, anything creative that you can use that vast imagination of yours. You're a bit of a puzzle to people love to wonder as to what is going in your mind.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element: Water, Wind
Animal: Eagle
Color: Purples, Blues,Pinks, Misty Colors
Song: Imaginary by Evanescence
Expression: Blank Stare
Gemstone: Rose Quartz
Mythological Creature: Unicorn,Fairy
Sign: Cancer
Planet: Saturn
Hair Color: Strawberry Blonde
Eye Color: Violet

Quote:"I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple skies fly over me."
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原则

做人，要有原则。

到底是要有原则，还是要对得起良心？

突然间想到，你的原则，可能不是他所能认同的那一套。同样的，你认为对得起良心的事，可能他做不出。当然，要看你认为什么比较重要。。。

只要不暗箭伤人，不重“钱”轻友，不说一套做一套，那基本上，你应该是个比较正常的普通人。

记得，一种米养百种人，在这世界上还是有许多“怪人”。。。

Want to know me better? Read my blog!

Actually I really didn't know what I was doing when I started my first blog more than a year ago. I mean, it sounded so juvenile... hehehe no offence ya? But as the blogging went on... and after I tried blogging in chinese, boy, I can tell you that this is really quite interesting... and I'm sure no one would disagree on that!

Blogs are personal stuff... like someone said, it's really a virtual home, some "intangible" abode that people go back to, after a crappy day, some nice warm "living room" that you relax in, except that it doesn't exist anywhere other than the world of binaries and TCP/IP...

It's quite funny reading other people's blogs. What they have to say, what they experience, or simply their thoughts. The privacy is lost. For some reasons... like a friend puts it... it's like inviting uninvited visitors to your house and displaying all that you are or are not in front of them... strangers... yet... the interesting part is that we often get so engrossed, that we begin to feel that we actually know this other person being the monitor who's blogging down all those thoughts and feelings... and sometimes, we become friends... in the virtual world. Never met in the entire life... but we know all about the other party...

Of course, some blogs reveal soooo much about the author to the point of being crass. I mean, I would never want to publish my more intimate details or whatever, and expose myself like an exhibitionist. I have nothing against them, just that I myself wouldn't want to air my "dirty linen" out in the vast virtual field...

Well, perhaps one of these days, my blog entries might become a sort of autobiography... it'll be there... and perhaps my children and grandchildren and great grandchildren will be able to know their mum, grandma, great grandma better... through the existence of this blog... assuming blogger remains in business for that long... *grin*

婚前婚后

夜深了，便会有很多东西想说。夜阑人静的时候，脑细胞突然活跃？

常会听到这样的一句话：“婚姻是爱情的坟墓。”那当初为什么选择结婚？因为爱情是盲目的？很奇怪，当你到了一定的年龄，便会有善意的亲朋戚友在一旁催婚。转个身，同样一群善意的人，说的又是另外一句话：“还是保持单身好，要玩的时候至少没有牵挂。”矛盾吧？

那一天，在餐厅看到一对夫妻，男的霸位，女的排队，一猜便猜到应该是结了几年婚的老夫老妻。不出所料，菲佣带着小主人出现。妻子买了食物回来，做老公的吭也不吭一声，便自顾自地开始行动。妻子忙着安顿小孩，一边叫菲佣帮忙喂小孩吃东西。

另一边厢，一对年轻男女显然是在热恋中，男的非常体贴地为女朋友买吃的。两人的眼神交流，仿佛全世界只有他和她。男的把纸巾递给女的，女的为男的擦掉遗留在嘴边的食物。两人小声说，大声笑。真的，全世界就只属于他和她。

婚前婚后，多么大的分别啊！开始觉得可能保持在男女朋友的关系会好点！

和一群同事谈起，却不小心问错了人。问了一位看起来摆明已经结了婚的男同事，男同事淡淡地说：“我太太已经过世了。”看起来已经很平淡的他，不知道被我这样一问，是不是又把他推下山崖。当时的我，尴尬的可以。。。

对于婚姻，我没什么幻想。当然，这并不表示我排斥婚姻，只是听多了，看多了，现实的残酷，不是一句“有情饮水饱”就能盖过一切的。我不浪漫，天长地久对我来说，好像是天方夜谭，是电影里的主题。爱情，婚姻，都是要经营的，有谁对你满口花言巧语，海誓山盟，劝你还是把眼睛睁大一点。。。再强调一下，我不是悲观，是现实。至少不会被骗。。。有过被蛇咬的经验，你永远都会怕井里的那条绳。。。

离题了，呵呵。。。越写越奇怪。。。

遗憾

一贯冷傲的脸孔。。。却掩饰不了他的落寞。

又回到了同一个地方，然而景物犹在，人事已非。当初的一时冲动，导致今天这样的残局。自做虐吧？

眼泪缓缓从墨镜后留下。。。后悔又有什么用？

牵挂的人，想念的人，今天只剩下回忆。再也触摸不到，只有在梦里还可能相会。可能而已。人家说日有所思，夜有所梦，为什么他却梦不到牵肠挂肚的人呢？

再也没有眷恋了。该偿还的都还了，反正这世上值得怀念的都已经只有在回忆里，就随他们去吧。。。

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后记：那天看到一篇很短很短的短片，主角的那幅神情让我动容。想写下他心里的挣扎，虽然我不知道故事到底是怎样的。。。可能是遗憾吧，那种很深的遗憾，纵使面无表情，还是流露出一种落寞。。。不知道是演员的演技棒，还是我比较多愁善感。。。我不知道那个人的结局如何，或许就这样怀着恨，怀着遗憾过一生吧？

长江后浪推前浪，前浪死在沙滩上？

早上听到电台DJ说，“长江后浪推前浪，前浪死在沙滩上”，差点笑死。这或许比原来的“青出于蓝胜于蓝”来的更通俗，贴切吧？

早上的广播，谈论着这一届“红星大奖”里四位退位让衔的资深红星，讨论着这样做是好是坏。有人说范阿姐应该也退出“十大”，让更多年轻的“后浪”推上前。。。有人说他们这么做，无非是想为自己找台阶，见仁见智吧？

自己一向来认为，做人和赌博一样，要见好就收。舅舅说我看太多武侠小说，现在什么年代了？难道还想成为天下第一，然后隐居深山野岭，从此不过问天下事？不是啊，我只是认为，到了一定的阶段，应该放慢脚步，今时今日，没有所谓的“indisposable”，你能做的，别人也能做到。。。我可不想到时候“死在沙滩上”。。。

Of porridge and magazines...

The holidays are over... and I am officially down with flu. Damn the flu bug!

I haven't had flu for a year already... thanks to the flu vaccination I took a year ago. This year, I didn't take any, and I fell sick... with the horrid bug. Started feeling the "works" on Saturday morning... you know, the strange itchy throat, and bulgy eye feeling. By evening, I was sniffing away, feeling drowsy...

Anyway, I spent the whole holidays sleeping in bed. The anti-histamine sure worked! It was sad, I was hoping to enjoy myself during the break, as I was stuck in Singapore. Well, seems taht my body insists that I should be resting!

So for the whole of the 3 days, I was eating porridge and porridge, and more porridge. Who was the one who said that if someone's sick, feed him porridge? Is there any scientific proof to say the porridge is good for healing? My dearest boyfriend, insists that porridge is good for sick people! I wonder if he meant people who are sick in the brains... My mum fed me "bee tai mak" when I was sick last time... :P

So finally after 3 days of runny nose, I couldn't take it anymore. My nose was sore from the constant blowing and it made me look more like the infamous rednosed reindeer than anything else. More bulgy and watery eyes, bloodshot too, looked so sapped of energy, it made me wonder where did all the sleep go to? I looked as though I've been deprived of sleep for 3 days and 3 nights! I went to see a doctor, and waited... and waited... I think it must have been an hour, before I saw the doctor... for 3 minutes! Got some fedac and danzen and it costed me $38. All because it's public holiday and it was after 6pm.

All these time while I was at the doctor's, my lovely boyfriend surprised me by buying magazines for me... without me knowing, until I got home and opened my bag... so sweet of him... only thing is... I wonder if I'll be awake to read them...

人生如戏？戏如人生？

现在，偶像剧当道。

俊男美女，三（甚至是四）角恋爱，演的人入戏，看的人入迷。梦幻般的布景，导演们的精心布局，编织着一个个灰姑娘或青蛙王子的故事，让观众心甘情愿掉入迷幻世界。偶像剧播完后的余震，非比寻常。突然间所有的偶像剧迷都争着帮制作小组写续集，满足一下自己的幻想，希望故事有个自己能接受的完美结局。

爱得轰轰烈烈死去活来。
恨得歇斯底里面目全非。
在那个世界里，爱恨是很分明的，黑就是黑，白就是白，没有所谓的灰色地带。

是现代人的生活太单调吗？是现代人的世界太复杂？

《树、叶、风》-转帖自“星语星情”

作者：不详

树
会叫树的原因，是因为我擅长画水彩画，最爱画树，久而久之，我的画作右下方索性以一棵树来代表我。 高中三年交过五个女朋友，有一个女孩子，我很爱她，却迟迟不敢追，她没有美丽的面孔，没有姣好的身材，没有撩人的魅力，一个再平凡不过的女孩子。

我喜欢她，真的真的很喜欢她，喜欢她的单纯，她的直率，她的可爱，她的智障，她的脆弱。 不追她的原因，也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我；也许是因为怕在一起后，一切的好感都会消失；也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她；也许是觉得，她会是我的，不用急着为了她而放弃一切。 最后这个原因，让她陪了我三年，让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年，让她心痛了三年。

她很想当一个好演员，但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻，被她撞见，她?尴尬的笑笑说：「Go ~ on！」然后跑掉，第二天，她眼睛肿得像核桃一样，我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样，嘲笑了她一天，她在所有人都回家后，在教室哭了起来，她不知道练球回来拿东西的我，看了她一个多小时。

我的第四个女朋友，一直很不喜欢她，有次她们?个吵了起来，我知道依她的个性不会去惹事，但我还是护着女朋友，她被我吼了一下后，愣住，眼泪滑了下来，我无视她的眼泪，陪女友走出教室，第二天，她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑，我知道她很难过，但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。

当我和第五个女朋友分手时，我约她出去玩，玩了一天，我对她说：「我有事要对你说。」她说：「真巧，我也有事要对你说。」「我和她分手了。」「我和他在一起了。」我知道「他」是谁，他追她也有一阵子了，是个蛮可爱的男孩子，活泼有趣，充满了热情，追她追得满城风雨。

我不能表现自己的心痛，只能笑笑地恭喜她，但当我回到家，心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受，像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口，我无法呼吸，想大叫却叫不出?，眼泪竟然滑了下?，我掩面大哭，多少次，我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。

毕业典礼时，我在手机上发现了一封简讯，这是十天前，我掩面大哭时传来的，只是我一直?有去开过机。 「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

叶子
高中时，喜欢搜集叶子，why？因为我觉得，一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树，好勇敢哩！ 高中三年，我和一个男孩子很好，不算男女朋友那种好，是好朋友那种好，但是，在他交第一个女朋友时，我学会了一种不该有的感觉，吃醋，心中的酸，不是一颗柠檬可以比喻，那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬，酸到不行，他们只在一起两个月，当他们分手，我还得掩饰自己心中?烈的喜悦，但是一个月后，他和另一个女孩子在一起。

我喜欢他，也知道他喜欢我，可是，他为什么总是不追我呢？明明喜欢彼此，为什么不行动？每当他交一个女朋友，我就心痛一次，一次又一次的打击，让我不禁怀疑，是我一厢情愿吗？不爱我，为什么要对我那么好？他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。喜欢一个人，好难过，我可以清楚的知道他的喜好，他的习惯，唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透，难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗？

尽管如此，我还是想在他身边，关心他，陪他，爱他，也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我，就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯，我知道，就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待，陪了我三年，等待是难熬的，是令人想放弃的，但等到的那一刹那，让人第二天会继续等下去。这样的煎熬，这样的痛苦，这样的幸福，这样的矛盾，陪了我三年。

直到三年级下学期，高二一个学弟喜欢上我，每天的热情追求，令我从一开始的拒绝，渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。他像一阵温柔而持久的风，撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子，到最后，我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风，我知道这阵风，会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子，到更幸福的地方。 于是我离开了树，树只是笑笑，没有挽留。 「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

风
因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子，因为她有一棵令她依恋的树，所以我要当一阵风，一阵呵护她的风。 第一次看见她，是高二我转?一个月后的事，个子小小的她坐在球场旁，一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长，每天的社团时间，她总会坐在那里，一个人，和朋友，她的眼光依旧凝视着他，当他和女孩子打打闹闹，她的眼中有泪，当他看向她，她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯，就像她爱看他。

有一天她没来，我心中没来由的焦虑与不安，我无法解释那种感觉，除了不安，还是不安，而且那学长竟然也不在。我冲去他们教室，躲在外面，看着学张骂她，她的眼泪，他的离去。 第二天，她依旧坐在场边，看着他，我走过去，对她笑一笑，拿了张纸条给她，她先是惊讶的看着我，然后笑笑地收下。 隔天，她拿着纸条出现在我面前，然后离开。 「叶子的心太沉重，风吹不动。」 「不是叶子的心太沉重，是叶子根本就不想离开树。」

我回给她这段话后，她渐渐会和我说话，收我的礼物，接我的电话。 我知道她喜欢的不是我，但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我，四个月内我告白了不下20次，每一次她都转移话题，但我还是不会放弃，我?定要的人，我就一定会给它追过来！ 一直到不知道第几次的告白，出了口，虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事，但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应，?想到她都不说话，「?在干嘛？怎么不说话？」我对着话筒说。

「我在点头。」 「啊？」我不敢相信自己的耳朵。 「我在点头！」她大声叫。 我甩掉电话，匆匆披上一件衣服，上了机车，冲去她家按门铃，当她开门的那一?那，紧紧抱住她。
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明明很爱她，却吊高来卖。。。自私
一厢情愿以为等待是必然的，蓦然回首方知蹉跎等于错过。

时间对不上。。。遗憾
感情对不上。。。错爱
天时地利人和。。。幸福

无题

没有所谓的该哭的时候哭，该笑的时候笑。当然，不该笑的时候大笑，搞不好人家请你到后港的别墅小住一下。

很多年前，爷爷去世的时候，我也没哭。没哭，不代表我和爷爷的感情不好， 相反的，我们的感情很深，很深。问我为什么没哭，我却不知该如何回答。他过世后的某一天，很久很久以后的某一天，我却突然崩溃了。。。

感情，没有常规，没有逻辑， 没有定律。有的话，还叫感情吗？

望穿秋水

每一次都这样，空欢喜一场。
每回抱着满心的希望和期待，到最后却全都落空。

开始觉得每一件事都来得比“我们”重要，“我们”永远排在最后。
顾及到“别人”，What about us?

我相信每个成功的男人的背后都有一个女人，一位能扶持他的聪明女人。我希望我是你背后的那股推动力，那个小精灵，但也希望能偶尔撒撒娇，享受被宠的感觉。

是你变了吗？还是我的期望提高了？

我就像是恶婆娘，时时刻刻向你施压，时时刻刻逼你做你（想？）不想做的事。

我也不想这样。我可以很宽容，但忍耐是有限度的。

白痴和天才，只有一线之差。

不想再一次望穿秋水。。。希望这次真的能“一言既出，驷马难追”。。。

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后记：抒发一下感情。没有头绪，想什么写什么。一句句没有关联的话，只因为我想和某人出国旅行，却往往不能实现。理由？他是工作狂。。。

Food Journal Days 5-7

Paiseh, never update for a while... I'm always like that... weekends are precious to me, that's why I always spend the entire weekend outside playing... :P

Now let's see if I can still remember what I ate on Friday and Saturday...

Friday, 5 Nov 2004

Breakfast
1 homemade burger

Lunch
1 pack lemon chicken rice

Dinner
1 plate steam rice
Some veg
Some beancurd skin, braised

Saturday, 6 Nov 2004

Breakfast
1 bowl Katong Roxy laksa, didn't finish gravy
1 cup sugarcane juice

Lunch
6 pieces of sashimi
1 california handroll
1 tempura maki
1 glass green tea

Dinner
1/2 spinach pizza
5 meatballs
celery strips
some cheese
A bottle of Vergelegen Merlot shared with my boyfriend

Geez. Wine killed me again, on Saturday. We were at Wine Company at Dempsey Road at about 8+. It was really crowded. Think the article that Straits Times ran on them, was attracting many people...

Sunday, 7 Nov 2004

Breakfast
1/2 bowl of Shio Ramen (Vegetarian)
A bit of glutinous rice
2 small lotus rabbit bun
1 Har Kow

After breakfast, I had a major bout of migraine. Well, it actually started before breakfast. We were driving around, and I suddenly couldn't focus. I couldn't make out the number plates a car away. It was scary... Not sure if it was because it was too bright, but I started to feel nauseous, very typical of migraine. I think I scared the hell out of my boyfriend. I haven't had migraine in years... and this was really worse than any of the previous occurrences. Went back to rest after that, and slept for 5 hours. Thank God it got better after I woke up.

Dinner (Yap, didn't eat lunch... was sleeping)
1/2 bowl of taiwan porridge
Some Szechuan Veg with Pork slices
Sweet and Sour pork
1/2 prawn omelette
1 can pokka green tea

After which, we adjurned to The Fullerton's Postbar for some drinks. Wasn't ready to have alcohol... too bad for my head, so decided I should just have non-alcoholic drinks. Ended up with:
1.5 chicken wing ( wasn't very cooked, so I didn't finish them)
1 cup earl grey tea

Think the deep frier was too hot, and the wings were not thawed enough. Came out not quite cooked. Disappointing.

Anyway, tomorrow's another bingeing day again... :( there is going to be a team lunch... gosh, I really don't want to think about it... read about it tomorrow, ya?

我的爱-孙燕姿

绕着上路 走的累了
去留片刻 要如何取舍
前年捡的 美丽贝壳
心不透彻 不会懂多难得

以为只要简单的生活 就能平息了脉搏 却忘了在逃什么

我的爱 明明还在
转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来
而不是各自缅怀

我会在 沿海地带
等着潮汐更改
送你回来 你走路姿态
微笑的神态 见你是曾错过的 真爱

以为只要简单的生活 就能平息了脉搏 却忘了在逃什么

我的爱 明明还在
转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来
而不是各自缅怀

我会在 沿海地带
等着潮汐更改
送你回来 你走路姿态 微笑的神态 见你是曾错过的 真爱

莫非这是上天善意的安排 好让心更坚定 彼此更接近 真爱

我的爱 明明还在
转身了才明白
该把幸福 找回来
而不是各自缅怀

我会在沿海地带
等着潮汐更改
试着忍耐 不再怕伤害 不再怕期待 见你时那才是我真爱

你走路姿态 微笑的神态 亲你时那才是我真爱

Food Journal Day 4

I'm stressed. Eat so much... :( Wanna see what I ate today? I think I'm starting to gross people out. :P

Breakfast
1 croissant
1 plate of bee hoon
1 glass of soya bean milk

Lunch
1 plate spaghetti vongole
1/2 plate of garden greens

Dinner
1 plate of rice
some vegetables
some braised meat

ARGH!!! I am hopeless... I actually have training today, that's why I ate pasta in the afternoon. Geez. Then it had to rain... I mean, POUR. We had to cancel training. Obviously my pasta stayed in my system. I wonder which side of the scale would I be... when I weigh myself this weekend. That's it, tomorrow I'm going gym again...

The Food Journal: Day 3

Day 3... it's 3 Nov. Not too good, I realised I entertain too much, maybe that's why I'm of this size...

Breakfast
1 x Khong Guan char siew pau
2 x roti prata (very thin frozen roti prata)
1 glass barley

Lunch
Chicken rice meal to share, didn't finish rice
1 glass teh-o

Tea
1 Tall Latte from Starbucks

Dinner
2 pints of pilsner beer
3 chicken winglets
Some calamari
1/2 german sausage

Geez, that's bad... I'm not a healthy eater... *sigh* ultimate depression.

It's rainy again, and it has a very familiar feel to it, almost like when I was young again. You know how it always rains at the end of the year and it's almost a sure sign that year-end school holidays are here, and Christmas is approaching? I haven't had that feeling for a long long time, and today (well in fact, this couple of weeks) I had that exact same feeling that I had many many eons ago. Cool! Well the not so cool thing is that, I get reminded that I'm getting old...

Ah well, hopefully day 4 will go better... this is NOT easy... heehee... :P

欠扁

问： 肉粽（Bah Zang）掉了，谁把它捡起来？
答：降龙。因为“降龙十八掌” （降龙拾bah zang）！

The Food Journal - Day 2

Ok, I've logged in breakfast... so what did I eat for lunch?

Lunch
1/2 plate of rice with curry gravy
Some roast pork
Some hainanese pork chop
Some braised veg
1/4 braised beancurd
2 slices of steamed squid with sambal chilli
1 cup teh-o

Hmm the reason why so much food was because I was out with the guys and they ordered some dishes from this famous hainanese curry rice stall to share. I didn't finish my rice... too much.

I went for netball training @ 7pm, and by 8.45pm, I felt my system slowly shutting down... too hungry. Training was quite intensive, kept doing courtwork, playing short games that lasted 5 to 6 goals each.

After training, we adjourned to Adam Road Hawker Centre for dinner... yikes, potential weight trap. My friend ordered indian rojak to share, but I only ate a bit. Well I think the fancl drink worked, cos I didn't really feel like eating... or maybe it was just because I was too tired?

Dinner
1/2 plate of bee hoon goreng
2 slices of tau kwa
2 slices of potato
1 glass of starfruit juice

Now... I'm really tired... body still aches, it's a sign of fatigue... my body's screaming to me to go to bed... so... I think I shall just listen to my body, and go to sleep... G'night, folks!

The Food Journal Begins...

I know I know... I was supposed to blog it in yesterday... but I was so tired...

Now let's see...

Date: 1 Nov 2004

Breakfast
1 x Tau Sar Pau

Lunch
3 x pork ribs
3 x fish slices
3/4 cup vegetable
1 bowl steamed white rice

Dinner
3 glasses of red wine (Shiraz), half filled
A bit of warm bread dipped in olive oil and balsamic vinegar
Some Calamari fritti
Some Beef Carpacio (is this how they spell this word?)
Half a plate of Risotto Nero

Yikes... I think the wine killed me. I haven't weighed myself... dun have a weighing machine at home. Leonard's got the OSIM digital weighing machine that calculates body fat as well... but I will only get to use it during weekends... hmmm....

I actually went to the gym yesterday... ran on the treadmill for 30 mins, and did some weights. My body's aching all over now, actually. Felt much better... as though I lost weight... haha... but that's probably my illusion.

Oh yah... and I spent money... on this slim-up drink thingie from Fancl... not sure if it works, but it's supposed to aid in the burning of fats... and suppress the appetite... I bought 1 box... and they gave me 2 more bottles. Tried one, it tasted like grapefruit drink...

Anyway, that's yesterday... I'm going to make sure I eat healthily today... but from what I ate in the morning... it's not going so well...

Date: 2 Nov 2004

Breakfast
1 x peanut butter sandwich
1 x png kueh (the teochew pink glutinous kueh)
1 x sausage (boiled)
1 cup barley drink

Alamak...! But hey, I think they say that the most important meal of the day is breakfast right? So it is ok if I eat a little more...? Kekekeke... Aiyo... Lunch is almost here... I think we have a team lunch... darn, not sure what or where we would eat...

I'll be back with more after lunch!